Monday, October 31, 2011

Get To Know Me Better?

This picture was taken when I was 17 y/o

I am a pessimist with reasons. The fact that I've lost everyone that I love has made me become who I am today. By saying everyone's a passer-by is how I've survived. That is why I am surrounded with impenetrable walls which only I am in, no one else is. Somehow rather that's mainly why I value myself so much, I put myself on the pedestal not because I am conceited it is simply because I only have me. It is only I who could surpass my own self.

I am the coldest person you've ever met and the nicest person you could have known but really only a few souls have. Love has healed and wounded me. Well, shit happens, I deal. I'm not the kind of person that would let everyone in my life, I choose my people. It is because as life kept happening I have became much more hardcore. I have became much more ruthless because you have no idea what kind of shit life is putting me through. I don't give a crap about people who doesn't matter as that being said those who doesn't matter to me, doesn't matter at all. I'm raged up about the littlest thing and yes "it's me against the world".

I listen to headbanging heavy metal hardcore music because I can relate, I don't do those cheesy pop songs that means nothing to me unless if I'm in love that's a whole different story because we're all fools when it comes to love. But currently I'm not in love and I don't want to be. It is easier for me to hate than to love, but once I love someone that's it, I love them very much. Well, I don't do love often as 95% of the humankind don't impress me. So, if you and me are friends you're very lucky and if you and me are together you're the luckiest.

I am bipolar and a schizotypal person. "If being sane is thinking there's something wrong with being different then i'd rather be completely fucking mental". I am one you have never faced before and I am beyond your imagination. I may come off as arrogant but truth is, I am not arrogant just that my ego is way bigger than your ass. I'm not afraid of anyone but myself, well except maybe my dad, a little.

This picture was taken last year. Don't worry, I still the same till now ^^

This is just a little part of me, not even half of me. I'm not an open book and you can't read me. Well, I spent 20 years trying to get to know myself and if i were about to define every little details to you in a paragraph that would be unfair. So the rest is unwritten. I'm a question without an answer and I'm a puzzle that can't be solved even Einstein can't figure me. Try me,I'm your biggest mystery. Well, in other word, I'm a mess and I'm too much to handle but that's okay because in this world I'm one of the few people who aren't fishing for acceptance simply because I don't give a fuck.

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